To my Inner Adventurist

I want to tell you how much I miss you and how much I adore having you in my life and that soon we will reunite once more. I haven't been truly on my own for very long but I've grown to learn and understand myself better than ever. I have so much that goes on in this head of mine, it truly is remarkable. Whether it comes to thinking about my future, my finances, my adventures, my love life.. I've always been sure of what I wanted. Prior to being alone, it was harder to decide that. I wasn't sure that what I wanted would be good enough or it would be too over the top for people to understand. Even then, I still held some reservations because I knew that the life I want is far from the average person. I made a decision last week, a pretty big one to be quite honest. At first it was just an idea, an idea that grew quite rapidly into a wish and now a goal. I'm excited because it feels so true to my being. It also doesn't feel forced like many things tend to.. I've lived most of my adult life trying to settle for the average, settle for what I'm supposed to have or supposed to be like. Always forcing myself to conform to a "normal" reality. When in fact, I'm not normal or average, not in the most minimal sense. I've tried so hard to stick to this narrative that would make my parents proud the most.. when in fact that's just not who I am. I still believe in my path, I still believe in my career. But that's just the thing. It's my path and my career. I want to live my life the way I know will best fit me. I was put onto this earth to do something grand, something positive and impactful. Although I haven't figured out what yet, I know within my core that my intuition will take me to where I need to be exactly when I need to be there. I'm not afraid to take that step anymore because I know deep within my heart it's the right step to take.

Until we meet again, Jess.